1999 (don’t worry, I am not going to go year to year, I would be blogging forever. I’m a dinosaur just giving some background on this spiritual journey stuff)…
A colleague of mine was raving about this woman who was clairvoyant and psychic and said she had the best experience ever! She was so excited and hopeful about her future and said “YOU MUST SEE HER!” Apparently, she she lived in the West Village and was surprisingly inexpensive and the best part was she recorded it on a cassette tape you get to keep (yes people, a cassette tape, the kind you used when you made your boyfriend a medley of love song excerpts on tape in the 80’s (T- Rex = Me)…. Record, play, rewind, edit, and repeat with new song excerpt. Ah the hours I would spend on those).
I was young and curious, trying to figure shit out and I wanted answers (I was impatient to say the least), particularly about someone I liked at the time (I was in my 20’s still a bit immature in love) and wanted to know if he was THE ONE! (Mind you we hadn’t even gone on a date yet…remember I fantasize a lot).So duh 🙄, I wanted an appointment ASAP. Anyway, I called her, left a voicemail with my initial only (still skeptical) and a work number and waited for her to call me back to schedule. The next day Anne (that was her name, normal thank g-d) called me and happened to have a cancellation for that Friday evening, I took it!!!
I remember leaving a busy day at work and going to Anne’s apartment (most legit mediums and clairvoyants have some sort of home office/space) super stressed and anxious because I had just been dealing with a client who was having what she referred to as a “mental breakdown.” My client was an actress who shall remain nameless and I was pretty sure it was likely nothing or she was just upset because she had self doubt about some audition (like they say in Us Weekly “Stars, they’re just like us”). I somehow absorbed her overwhelming energy like a sponge and I carried it into Anne’s apartment. The door was ajar so I pushed it lightly and the first thing Anne said from a few feet away was “SHE NEEDS YOU”. I literally looked around and thought to myself “is she talking to me?” Anne was pretty and a simple looking young lady with a British accent and she got right into it…’RECORD’.
She wasted no time….she sat there, cross legged, looking up at the ceiling (almost googly eyed) and I sat there mirroring her Indian style pose (so uncomfortable because I was in full chic work attire – no lululemons at that time and athiesure was NOT work appropriate) eyes wide with excitement, mouth opened with a perma smile, watching her in anticipation (I was about to be told about my future wedding and forever bliss for g-d’s sake 🙌🏼! ) My life plan was about to be shared…
Then she spoke. “So many people want to speak to you, it’s overwhelming”. I thought to myself “I know I was pretty friendly and popular growing up but to my knowledge everyone is alive and well except one set of grandparents who are deceased so who the f*ck wants to talk to me and what do they want to say!?” In my head there was a faint background music playing, sort of like those in scary movies with little kids singing “Ring Around the Rosy”..I waited, afraid to ask anything because I was trying to be super cool and calm and she spoke again.
She described both grandparents to a tee! She talked about my youth, my family, my ex-boyfriend and the client I had just dealt with among others. She said I was “holding on to things” (could it have been those damn crystals with bad juju?). She continued and said I needed to take all of those things/thoughts from my past, put them in an imaginary box, tie a bow around the box and release it into the universe (one of the first times the word ‘universe’ had any merit in my life). I said “ok” thinking in my head “OK, I’ll get right on that after I wiggle my nose and snap my fingers to get home in a jiffy.” I mean I got the metaphor but I wanted tangible info! (Side note I did go home and clean out my closet and got rid of some old shirts and pants but I don’t think that’s what she meant).
After she accurately described the things I needed to release from my life (apparently I was holding on to a lot of ‘ideals’ I needed to free up), she brought HIM up (my person, #not). “I see you walking on a beach with him and he really likes you A LOT…BUT….I don’t get a good feeling about this. How can I explain this?… There are plenty of men around you wearing a t-shirt on with your name spelled correctly V.A.N.E.S.S.A but you keep going for the men wearing t-shirts with the letters of your name all jumbled like this S.A.N.E.V.A.S. In layman’s terms, I choose poorly and I need to OPEN MY EYES AND WAKE THE FUCK UP!!!
After many more on point accuracies of my then 20 + year life (seriously she was gifted, she even knew about the time I changed my report card and stole little lady bug magnets from Vanco pharmacy at 11 yrs old ..it was a dare I had to lol), Anne validated my curiosity and interest in higher powers and spirit because EVERYTHING she said, past, present and future was and did come true!!! I still have the tape, just not the tape player 😦
I was a BELIEVER and I wanted more!
Unfortunately for me, since I was the most stubborn human being (way better now thank g-d), I did NOT OPEN MY EYES AND WAKE THE FUCK UP. In fact I stayed asleep for years and continued to have rose colored glasses on while dating men who wore t-shirts with my name spelled incorrectly and who eventually wore a dirty ripped tank top with a small upside down lower case letter “v” in bold printed on the back.
Moral of the story is we’re all human and as “spiritual” and “balanced” as you think you are or hope to be, we all have poor judgment from time to time and it’s OK. BUT when a clairvoyant tells you something, LISTEN or in this case OPEN YOUR EYES!!! Kidding… follow your gut. I knew every time things weren’t right and I just thought they would get better, I’m too nice! When you are feeling self-doubt or a bit off (sometimes very off) and have a queasy feeling in the pit of your stomach, pay attention. THAT’S YOUR GUT! It’s trying to tell you something, don’t ignore it. Even when your gut comes in the form of an “Anne”… there are signs everywhere! You are the author of your own story! Life happens FOR you not TO you (Tony Robbins quote and yes I listen to A LOT of podcasts. Can’t you tell I like to gather tools along my journey? Podcasts are now one of them.) Knowledge is power!
Soon Cassandra and I will write together and connect all of this but for now I hope you are enjoying the snippets of life’s serendipity and fate while we give some background on how we came to be. Well more like where we are now (I know we’re in NY but that’s about it lol).
Stay tuned for “Ask the Medium” next… Cassandra will answer some of your questions so start thinking! If you can’t, don’t worry I’ve got plenty.
Xoxo Vanessa
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